Of course, every person wants to live his lifein a special way and I really want to be happy, but I just have such a fate. Now cats are creaking in my soul and you think what next, what unexpected and terrible can fate present you with, tears appear in my eyes when I remember what kind of life I have. I am only 19, but it feels like I have lived almost my whole life, in front of friends and relatives you hold yourself back, I am just such a person I can not tell what is going on in my soul, what happened. It seems that everything I am happy that something like this can happen again, and fate throws you suffering. I have two older brothers and a mother, when I was two years old, my mother and father separated, he cheated on her, cheated on her, she carried heavy things because of him while pregnant for 4 months and as a result she gave birth to a stillborn child, and when I was 8 years old, my mother got together with one man, after living with him for several years, he began to drink and attack us, my mother does not drink and cannot stand it when people drink every night and day, we lived in fear that one day he would cut us, we ran away from him and he ran after us with a knife or a stopper from drinking, he lost his mind. One day, my brothers and I went to the mountains to see our matchmakers. The next day, we found out that he had gotten drunk again and beaten my mother, rushed at my grandmother and stabbed her in the heart area with a knife, she was miraculously saved, the knife was 2 mm short of the heart, she spent 2 months in intensive care, but our valiant police did not put him in jail, we were told when he kills someone from you, then come, we called the police almost every day, because he repeatedly came and threatened, burned hay for 27 thousand, we sold the farm and hired a lawyer, of course, after 3 months he was put in jail, but only for 7 years, even to this day I feel fear and can’t calm down, everything started to get better and my mother became seriously ill, we needed money for an operation, we got into debt, thank God, everything returned to normal, as our valiant police had to again I won't say anything else about closing the case, in short, they're going to put my brother in jail, but he's innocent, we'll see what to expect, a lot has happened in my life and this is only a tiny part, I don't know what to do, I'm very worried but I keep it all to myself, well, how unfair life is, I can't take it anymore, I even wanted to commit suicide, but at one point I changed my mind, everything is going wrong in my life, of course, other people have it worse, but my nerves just can't take it anymore. Author:
